I swear. I have no friends here. I can be bullied upon and literally everyone sits and watches. (Even teachers, great isn't it?) Go home and tell my mom and all she does is laugh. Wonderful.

Slowly making my way through school...
Very slowly...

Let's just say, I hate it here.

Rina.. says (9:12 PM):
..can i be a lil serious?
without being mocked?
Lucas says (9:13 PM):
ofcourse you can
Rina.. says (9:13 PM):
i must have damn good self control.
i know i'm not mentally stable.
i can tell from doing the most simple things and yet getting really pissed off by them.
my dad's a drunk asshole
Rina.. says (9:14 PM):
he uses a mug to drink wine (i don't know why, he just does)
everytime i'm putting the mug away
i want to throw it. either at the ground or his head.
i want to smash the "world's best dad" mugs.
and i swear one day i'm going to have a mental breakdown in school from some retarded question/problem/annoying kid bragging about their money
Rina.. says (9:15 PM):
and no one's gonna give a shit
they'll label me looney and not talk to me anymore

wtf am i supposed to do?
Lucas says (9:15 PM):
idunno
Rina.. says (9:15 PM):
exactly :/

and there's my pain of the day.

went to second family's.
we were playing a game.
we being me, my 2 "cousins", and my mom
my dad goes up to my mom asking for the car keys
and she decides we have to go home
i hate my life.

and i totally see that school thing happening.
then i'd be a loner.
and everyone from my old school would be right.

I'll caps letters the sections of my random update so you can skip the shit you don't wanna read. :3

OHMYGODIMONFIRE.
When I'm done with this I'm going to watch that video.

HOMEWORK.
I just finished it.
Berke's.
My highlighter ran out of ink.
MY GREEN ONE! :'(
And I found out I'm ahead of my smart-allack friend, Dani. In math! Muahaha...

SMOSH.
I love them!
[link]
The Twilight one is the best.


INTERESTING SMALL BIT OF INFORMATION.
Mis-an-thrope: 1. A person who hates mankind.
Just to clarify: I do not hate mankind. I never have. On the contrary, I've always been fascinated and baffled with mankind. But basically, my whole life, I've had the same relationship with mankind that a toddler has with the ocean: It's this massive, dangerous, noisy *thing*, and I'd love to jump in and splash around. I'm just not sure how - plus the tides keep shifting and the waves keep coming, and infinity on that level is sort of tough to deal with.
Excerpt from Drawing a Blank or How I Tried to Solve a Mystery, End a Feud, and Land the Girl of My Dreams by Daniel Ehrenhaft
Frankly, I'm attracted to thin books with big lettering. Not like I can't read a book like Lord of the Rings, it's just I prefer fast reads.

HOBBIES.
I want to find one.
One that is fun, cheap, and easy.
I liked photography but you gotta develop the film...
I liked writing but I never really had the time...
Any ideas?

YESTERDAY.
I saw 9. On 9-9-09. I believe I can now die in peace. It was a pretty awesome movie, though the ending could've been better. I'm hoping later on when it comes out on DVD I can buy it and it will have an alternate ending. I haven't seen many movies that don't, but who knows.

PATHETIC.
I think it's sad when you get stressed over something that's not your problem.

OTHER.
Anyone have any cool free applications that don't give your computer viruses that I can check out?

BLAH.
Wow, you're reading this? You're awesome!

-Rina.

[link]HG_rye2DSg (you're going to have to add a = D then type in the rest... :/



Anyways.
School's started.
First semester is literally the hell schedule.
Next semester I only have 1 academic class...
>_>

This morning I sent a hate letter. One of two things will come out of this, either he'll read it and tell me what I want to know, or he won't notice/completely disregard it and keep talking to me as if nothing's wrong. (The latter is more likely.)

Of today, I've been so stressed due to having to finish the work of one book and read the entire book of another, I have yelled at my mom, my brother, a few of my friends, and my AC to shut up. I've cried because my brain literally stopped working and I could do nothing to further my progress on the damn work. (You must understand, I don't cry. I hate crying. The feeling is horrible and literally makes me emo. This work was so difficult for me to finish I became angry with myself and isolated myself in a corner screaming "I FUCKING HATE THIS I FUCKING HATE THIS!" over and over until I felt better.)

Finally, I finished. I went and printed the SIX PAGES of ELEVEN POINT FONT and showed my mom telling her I was thinking of committing suicide. She told me to read Night first. FML. So currently I am reading Night. I never realized how much I hate jews. (Sorry if you're a jew and reading this, just know that if you start talking about "God" I swear to god I will kill you with paper cuts from your bible. )

Me > Fel:
Me: I am about to go...
Fel: awww
Me: Through a meltdown. I want to STRANGLE EVERYONE HERE.
Fel: Don't worry, THAT'S NORMAL! Have some sad music!
Me: I can't! People keep trying to distract me! >.<
Fel: Tell them to fuck off?
Me: Okay.. Fuck off. ...*pssst* it's not working
Fel: Lol.

I had to deal with conversations like that today.

I literally wouldn't mind murdering someone right now.